I'm so vain

This is one of those days when I feel so vain. I happened to wake up feeling pretty. Middle-aged but pretty. So I took snapshots. In my work, I always take photos of other people. Now I'll focus on myself. And why? I just had a funny thought. That I'm really getting older. And there is no way to stop time. So while I am still entering the boundary to fast ageing lane, I might as well "stop the time" by capturing this moment.

I started noticing that I am indeed ageing since Tuwa's birth. The face is not as smooth anymore, the eyes are beginning to have wrinkles. The eyelocks are beginning to sag. I felt a sting of panic in the beginning, but as time went on, I have begun to accept the fact that I am not young anymore.

And it isn't at all bad to be older in fact. I realised that there are many advantages.

1. With maturity comes less self-centeredness. And how liberating it feels to be less egoistic!

2. Lack of insecurity. There are no more hassles about:  oh, I'm scared, I feel ugly,  how embarrassing. Nope, with maturity comes contentment.

3. With contentment comes real friendship, so it seems. Because I've stopped comparing myself to others. I mean, there will always be people better than I am in terms of some things, and I will be better in terms of other  things. So what's the competition all about? To feel happy about someone's deserved victory, to be inspired by others instead of feeling pity for oneself - now that is a wonderful feeling.

But although I have embraced that I am ageing, I still have plans of trying to slow down the process. How? Sleeping well, no late night parties (well I haven't been to any disco and the like for the last three years!), eating enough, walking, and feeling happy.
And oh yes, I have also been trying different creams. Right now I use cleansing milk from Dr Arroyo's clinic, Sensai cream and Dior's Capture Totale One Essential. Plus Clinique eye cream. They all work fine for me!
On february 2010, my skin cracked with wrinkles after taking a ten-minute swim outdoor when it was minus 7 degrees celsius (wintertime!). I got really sad. But Estee Lauder's night repair serum helped my skin heal immediately. It was fantastic!